Today, next year, do not sleep again

 They can not sleep.
Are so few nights, lie down and sleep, facing a lot of pictures, really like a dream, and then suddenly woke up, heart rate 120, palms sweating, take a look at the table, but only 1 hour and continue to sleep, again and again, until dawn, simply get up.
sleep will leave me behind, are always a lot of sleep the first few months, although the quality is poor, but after all, fall asleep, and now, day 2 -3 hours a coma, do not feel trapped, like a ghost gotta wake up anytime, anywhere.
poor sleep of natural loss of appetite, weight loss'd rather this effect, two days into not twenty-two rice, my mother said I do not cats eat more. this time I somewhat sad.
waiting for looking forward, I hope mom finally came back, I can not give her a happy self. of mutual intention of trying to make her less to worry about the elderly, but worry about a thing, or an attached, does not seem to decrease.
eat less, feel bad put me to sleep, mother has always followed me up early, or middle of the night I woke up, heart beat can not stand , look for drugs or something, I do not heart disease, heart rate is slow, so the jump to 100 or more to feel bad. sleep, the heart is always jumping.
sometimes want to dig out the heart, to see whether a something, what exactly is your heart broken, heartbroken songs to sing no trace, if that is so.
too old and the young feel the time is not the same, the reason my heart can understand, but not easy to put down the. want to cry and always give up halfway, kiki said, tend to be more serious internal injuries are not bleeding.
too tight or collapsing it, like a wandering soul during the day, the same night with the ghosts, people would laugh to see, or in a daze or something, just can not talk, can not be happy to vent, can not find any way out. this time to catch too bad, I really hope that at the moment in Beijing, so do not have to disguise their emotions, a little tired.
Dad asked me yesterday, do not go out to relax for two days, that really did not mind, but today prepared to run away from home, and then it goes on, people would collapse.
I can not collapse naturally have a lot of reasons, hardcore have to support, but are bound to think of go die, even though afraid afraid, it will not die, but will expect more frequent recently. kiki said that we die because death is too easy, no challenge. This is one, which kinds of methods have been out of fashion to escape, commit suicide every day, listening to are boring, do you disturb them, herd mentality can not be too serious.
want to see, to understand, people want to see, I would not understand, how to start, how to disappear, how arrogant, how humble, in the wounded city, covered with a familiar atmosphere, each square inch is enough to collapse, I was wrong? I really wrong to ?
number of smiles, there are that many tears, internal injuries too heavy, glossy appearance is also confident that when problems can be changed? However, the real collapse, and who cares?
songs with it, next year,
If this chandelier falls down
or I would not exist if you do not love

not need to break
if this moment I actually do not need to be severely demented
Love is always in bed, dreaming

rest of his life will not always need brave sad
survival

example I wish to re-learn to accept disappointment in love
again next year, do not sleep < br> mattress has changed or if fortunate enough to meet

bewildered companion wedding feast waiting for you next year, there was no

who are willing to change the year you leave your six years
Hopefully, your child can recognize a parting
also hear you say goodbye
moment to encounter during their remaining
actually spend all your luck to this day only to find
had
breathed air